A little blah today

A had an awesome heart stress test today! I also realized how much makeup rocks! 

I will give a full update later... Ugg

Our Vacay is closing in quick

    

Sean has been off work since Dec, 16^th which has been nice. It has been great to have that time together! I love that we can spend days together without killing each other (at least until the last few days). Sean is heading out of town on Sunday and it will be the first time we have been apart in our whole relationship. Crazy right? I honestly can't believe it. For two people that our SO independent we sure have done well together for this long. I am a little nervous/excited to see how I feel alone in the house.
    I am trying to figure out what big change I can make in the house while he is away. That will wow him when he comes home. Any ideas? I am considering re-arranging our bedroom and buying a new bed spread or something. Who knows what will come too with my mother in town and a little bit of fun.
    Work is starting to get crazy and by that I mean my planning. I am detrimed to kick ass in 2014. I am going to make this year successful. I know that not everything is going to go well but what doesn't I will learn from and take notes and make changes.

    This year is about me: My work, my spiritual choices, my body. If I focus on these I will have much more positive energy for my family. This year has been a little negative and I won't be allowing myself to take that into 2014. Nope that attitude is in the garbage and it is trashed.
    

Day One.

Welcome to 2014. Deep down I know it is just another day, but it feels shinny and new. Unlike the last day of 2013 which felt raw, too soon, unfinished, and needing a couple extra months not a restart. However, today I woke up refreshed and realizing I can do anything I put my mind too. So enough of last year and on to year….

    Today I got Christmas out of the house. The lights, tree, nick-naks are all put away and with it 2013 was packed. I feel like glittering the whole house to make it feel shiny and new too. Alas my attitude will have to be enough glitter is messy and I don't think Sean would like it at all.

    I am sure everyone is doing exactly what I am doing right now. Putting my best foot forward in all my new years resolutions. My house is clean, juice was made, and I am here blogging away all while planning my first workout of 2014. Secretly hoping that blogging will keep me help accountable. We all know how that worked in the past (30 day juice cleanse, weight loss, running) Yep all failed in 2013. I took to the wine and enjoyed the wine a lot or at least I thought I did. Now looking back that was probably part of the problem. I am on the right track as of this morning let keep one foot into the other.

    We have Corbynn and Eli and no Koda this week. Dakota has been missing her dad a lot so she is spending some extra time there. Her step sister had a baby too, Koda thinks that is the coolest thing ever. She has been having a lot of out bursts. I think she is reaching to control her life a little. She gets upset screams and throws herself around and then will just cry and cry, but if you walk out of the room she stops. It comes with a lot of guilt of course; you don't love me enough to let me see my daddy, I don't love you anymore, you're not my favorite mom. It is hard not to get upset. I know it must be hard living in two houses with no real schedule, but we are going to have to make improvements.

New Year. New style. New Goals.

   
 Looking back on the last year it was nuts. I did a lot of good things and failed to do a lot of things that I wanted too. I am taking full responsibility for those goals that were never reached. I spent a lot time consumed in "social media distractions". I know that social media increases my business but it can become a little excess. I am sure all you other Blogger/facetimers/instagramer know what I am talking about. I consider 2013 a huge year of growth for me mentally/physically/spiritually. I think I entered 2013 with rose colored glasses on. I was married to a wonderful man, working for what I thought was a great company, had a group of great friends. I was looking forward to a successful year. What I found out was I was without goals and didn't have a real plan for success. That applied both personally and professionally. This year is full of opportunity to fine tune what I started in 2013. I started a lot in 2013 and this year is going to be about follow through.
    First off personally I want to continue on my fight for a healthier life. I want to get back to my mostly veggie life style and re-incorporate juicing! I fell off the healthy train somewhere in 2013. It all goes back to follow through and what I want for 2014. I to work limiting the amount of box food I place into my body. I need to work toward having clean eating habits in order to keep that cancer at bay.
    Building a stronger body and working on making working out a priority in my life. In 2013 I worked out a lot. I made a lot of strides towards my body and I want to keep up those habits. I want to work out 3 times a week every week this year. I would also like to incorporate some yoga into my workout plan to go along with the running and weightlifting.
    I have been working on meditating to deal with stress and I love it so I want to continue doing that. I would like to branch out and work towards my own spiritual beliefs. I have spent most of my life as just agnostic and I don't know if that will change. I want to spend some time every month working on me and my beliefs
    I want to get involved in a parenting class to help combat the ever changing life with kids. I also want to make it a goal to have Sean and I on the same page when it comes to rewards and discipline. I believe that us being on the same page is going to be vital to making this blended family function well. We are making it right now just because the kids are all doing well, but with the teenage years right in front of us it is time to work together on a solid parenting plan. It isn't that we don't agree it is just that we don't have a plan. It seems like with melding two families together it is an area that needs follow through.
    The big goals of 2014 are mostly professionally. This last year has been hard on me professionally and that is no one's fault but my own. I took a lot of risks this year and I believe they will pay off going into 2014, but not without a plan to handle growth. I want to make a solid income above my current cost. I would also like to see myself close 24 deals in the next 12 months. Doing that is going to mean a lot of work. I need to set work hours for myself and stick to them. Having the option to work when I want has made for a lot of wasted time or time running with my head cut off. So I am currently working on my business plan more on that later.

 
More than anything else I plan on being present in 2014. I believe that is the key to all of these things. So here is to seeing you all succeed in 2014

 

 
   
 
      

Grand Targhee!!

Sean and I had a blast in at Grand Targhee Resort in Wy. We snowboarded for four days straight. Even though we didn't have mass amounts of powder we did have massive amounts of fun. We pulled in just hours after the sky had dropped 12 inches of powder, but before we had time to make it on the hill it was completely tracked out. We took one run and couldn't find a groomer it was a little rough... You know calf burning rough. :)

We went to x-mass dinner at the lodge and had a great experience with their four course meal. I had the sturgeon and Sean had the steak. I had never had sturgeon before and I don't think that I will ever be my top choice but it was good. Thick like a steak, yet flaky like fish. It came with the cutest little dessert and also LOTS of wine.

We saw a local Boise band there called Stoneseed. They were different, I really enjoyed their sound. I was surprised that I live in Boise and had never heard of them.  The violinist was hard to watch due to her constant angry look on her face. If she hadn't been dancing I would have thought she hated her own music. I am excited to listen to the CD we got.

My snowboarding is getting a lot better. Every time I go out it gets a little  easier to trust that my body really does know how to do this. I think it is funny how much of snowboarding is a mental gain. When I learned to board it was easy, I was just naturally good at it. After a couple knee surgeries and a lot of cancer later I wasn't feeling very awesome on the hill.

Holiday Love

We celebrated x-mass  on winter Solstice. The year has gone by in a flash, and I am not sure where it has gone. It has been an amazing year without a lot a lot of speed bumps. I have been trying to compile a list of all the positives that happened this year and then I realized I am living those positives.

I am so thankful for my life. It has changed so much in the last few years. We have so much and my memory of having so little is so far in the back of my head. It just wasn't that long ago that putting gas in my car was difficult.  Somethings change in a blink of and eye.

Sean and I leave for Grand Targhee in the in morning for 5 days. I am really excited to get some time with Sean. To be able to board for a few days and not worry about all the things that are coming ahead this year. My snowboarding has so much better in the last year, I am looking forward to being able to keep up with Sean. Sean has not been able to board to his skill level over the last three years while I have caught up. Not saying that I am good rider yet, but I am keeping up. My turns are getting sharper and more fluid and I am having a lot of fun on the hill. I can't wait to have a good time out there and to be able to see Sean having the same good time.  Sean is going to go on a Cat ride and spend half the day snowboarding out in the thick of it. I don't feel like I am up to it yet this year, but I am super excited for Sean. He is going to love it.

my Heart.

It is the season of heart. It is where the world comes together and celebrates giving, loving, and being a family. A whole heart. Well.
   This last few months my heart has been acting up and not in the greatest way. I have been running a lot lately and when I run my heart rate is over 210 after about .25 a mile. I knew that something was wrong, but admitting that is hard. Understanding it is worse; the truth is my heart is struggling to keep up. I am on a EKG for the next few days trying to figure how bad it is.
    I have spent the last couple days under playing it to the best of my ability. truth is I can't it may be way worse than I want.