Thursday, May 31, 2012


Scary. not fun. crippling. 

Corbynn has asthma. 
She has always been a sicky. 
The coughing never seemed to stop. 
Countless hours in the doctors office with no explanation.

A lot of time wondering why she always go every thing.
She would cough all day and night with no 
other symptoms or sometimes with
every other symptom. 
Runny nose, fever, ear infection. 
The antibotics never stop. 

Now we are on a new inhaler. 
A steroid that they hope will work. 
I am hopeful yet unsure as I always am. 
Medicine is always a guessing game. 
Lets just hope Corbynn keeps taking it is stride.

19 days until we are at the beach. 
the count down is on.

Sunday, May 27, 2012


As I thought things passed over with out even another thought. It is amazing how powerful PMS + work stress can be. In those moments of despair going to bed still holding each other is the best choice. We both awoke to hugs and I am sorry speeches.

Last weekend we went to a amazing cabin with our good friends the Irishes. I cannot even express the amount of love I have for these two. It is incredible how fun, upbeat, and caring they can be.
We had a wonderful weekend filled with lots of laughing and some deep conversation.

Lots of love to them.

Here are some pictures.

Friday, May 25, 2012


Relationships are just hard. There are days when nothing goes well. You just can't speak. Nothing you say is heard. Times when things are not on the same line. When nothing seems to be making a difference. No matter how hard you try.

Out here in blog land we tend not to talk about the hard stuff. The stuff that makes you cry and yell.

Today was just one of those days or maybe I should say weeks. It just hurts. Stress levels are running high which makes home hard. Today I feel like no matter what I do that I don't do it enough. No matter how hard I try, it may not be enough. That I just can't seem to do enough to make him proud. I don't work hard enough or make enough. Today I feel very small. Like an ant that you could come across and just step on. You may not even notice that you have crushed me. You may just be there unknowingly walking and crush me. that is how today is. Today I feel like I am not enough. Today I am not good enough. It hurts my heart down deep where no one sees. Today is that day. The day where we fight. We remember just how hard complicated marriage is. How hard it is to be two instead of one.

 How in awe of those who do it smoothly. Those that have been married for ever. Those are the ones that I want to run to. The ones that I want to hold me close and tell me that the truth about marriage is just that compromise and love go along way. I know these things already but, being around a person who does these things every day is different. The way they say it is different; it comes from the experience of many fights.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012


Yep it is warm outside! It was finally time to pull out the water guns and bring in the neighbor kids. 
Corbynn isn't herself again yet. She cries at every corner. I think she may need LOTS 
more sleep. 

This is little M. He is the cutest kid EVER. He is a couple years younger than Corbynn and 
most of the time they get along great. 
He jokes more than she would like. 

Not to mention he is a "boy". 
I love that they play. I love that they get along. 
I love seeing her in the older
sibling role. 

Very cute. 

Sunday, May 6, 2012


Released back into the wild! 
Scott moved back to Salt lake City on Wednesday. After 5 months of intense rehab he is going 
back to work. It is amazing what your body is capable of. 

It seems strange that just a few short months ago we did not believe he
would even pull through. 
Then he did. Then we were worried they he may never regain a memory. 
Then he did. 
There were some many things to over come and yet with everyone he got 

Then he left for his old life. 
The one where he didn't have to check in. 
The one that was his own. 

We will miss his humor and company. 

But we are SO very happy that he has made the 
recovery that he has. 

Pretty amazing it is. 
Here are the shots of him pulling out last Wednesday.