Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Feeling like nesting.

I have been fighting the need to nest lately. I would like to call it decorate, but due to my lack of skills we will call it nesting. I think it is part of getting off all of my drugs and starting to see that I need things to fill my day with. I have a lot less energy these days, however I seem to have a lot more drive.

I have been getting the little things done which is NICE; I need the accomplishments right now. I need to feel like things are happening. Success is a great feeling and I crave it constantly these days.
Work has been hard with the lack of energy. I have been having trouble connecting to the world lately. My clients must feel that: I don't feel like conversation with the amount of stress that seems to be all over me. 

The days roll on with out much news of cancer related things. The things I know are that I signed a paper stating I know I have had my life time amount of recommended radiation and that I plan on having much more. I often wonder if I could cook raw chicken before it hits my stomach due to the amount of radiation that is in my body.

I wonder if I am going die of something related to this crap... I would guess the probability is high...

Everything will be alright everyday is a day worth living and I am thankful to see my children grow into little REAL people. To see my relationship grow into an amazing story of love and commitment.

1 comment:

  1. I can relate to much of what you are worrying about (the cancer stuff) too. However, there is nothing we can do about it so it is time wasted on the worrying.
    We are here now....... thankfully and you especially live a full life and I try to but my body holds me back a bit.
    Maggie X

    Nuts in May