I have been fighting the need to nest lately. I would like to call it decorate, but due to my lack of skills we will call it nesting. I think it is part of getting off all of my drugs and starting to see that I need things to fill my day with. I have a lot less energy these days, however I seem to have a lot more drive.
I have been getting the little things done which is NICE; I need the accomplishments right now. I need to feel like things are happening. Success is a great feeling and I crave it constantly these days.
Work has been hard with the lack of energy. I have been having trouble connecting to the world lately. My clients must feel that: I don't feel like conversation with the amount of stress that seems to be all over me.
The days roll on with out much news of cancer related things. The things I know are that I signed a paper stating I know I have had my life time amount of recommended radiation and that I plan on having much more. I often wonder if I could cook raw chicken before it hits my stomach due to the amount of radiation that is in my body.
I wonder if I am going die of something related to this crap... I would guess the probability is high...
Everything will be alright everyday is a day worth living and I am thankful to see my children grow into little REAL people. To see my relationship grow into an amazing story of love and commitment.