Thursday, June 2, 2011


Today is one of those days that I tend to try and let slip by without remember the past. Today it did not work as planned. I found myself on edge and cranky for most of the day. I spent most of the day trying to figure out why I was on edge.

      I have taken some big blows over the years. Some that I cannot even begin to understand or explain how I came back from them. I try not to remember them every day but, today I remember.

     I lost Mike almost nine years ago. His death was the beginning to a tornado of changes in my life. Mike's suicide wrecked havoc on my life. I found Mike in our house... I still don't know how to write about what I saw that day. The amount of shock I went through might have a lot to do with that.

    Mike was incredible. He had a light around him like non that I had seen before or after his death. We spent a lot of time together over the course of his last year.  I don't know how many lesson I learned by knowing Mike. Some were great some were not so great.

          I started writing this three days ago after randomly working on my Mike tattoo... Then last night suddenly I found a facebook page in his honor. I hadn't planned on posting but, I think it is only right to say how much I miss him and thank him for all the life lessons.


  1. I also lost a friend to suicide. Its hard, isn't it?
    Maggie X

    Nuts in May

  2. It is hard. It is so confusing and difficult to get through... The memories seem to flood at the strangest moments.