Thursday, October 27, 2011

10.27.11


Brain holes


          All this brain radiation has left me with some holes in there. It has caused a little bit of confusion in there a lot. I keep losing things, I can’t put myself in order. My mental clarity is not as clear as I want it to be a lot of the time after radiation.  My dreams are vivid; so vivid I think they are real a lot of times. They don’t just come at night anymore. I fall asleep during the day and wake up very disoriented.
          The other day I awoke after having the strangest experience ever. I could remember sitting in the car driving down I-05 talking about people of Wal-Mart and I look over and there is Brett. Just looking at me like wtf are you talking about. Suddenly his face changed and he laughed and asked If I remembered shaving is head. Then gave me shit for not shaving mine that day; he blamed his sister for talking me out of it.
          It felt so real. The doctors say the mind does strange things while it is healing. That I am going to experience seizures but, never told me I was going to have dreams that were so real they feel like memories.

Life is amazing.
Thanks for stopping by Brett.

2 comments:

  1. I like the way you carry on as normal after experiencing these things. You take everything in your stride and that is marvellous.
    I found chemo messed up my memory and also my digestion.
    Maggie X

    Nuts in May

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  2. I hate the memory stuff. It really fucks with me.

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