01/24/2012

I am sitting here looking at my upcoming schedule and it looks CRAZY! My schedule is getting busier just as I am starting to readLiving Simplicity. This is all about opening up your schedule to experience your life without over scheduling. When is the last time you let your kids be kids? How much time do you spend in front of the t.v., computer, or on your cell phone? I know that I am on all of the above way to much these days. I am starting realize that it is a form of escapism for me. But on to all the fun stuff I found online this week.

On to the fun…

I am SO INCREDIBLY in LOVE with Etsy.com. It is by far the best shopping girlfriend that I have ever had considering it send me a email every single day with items to fall in love with. Not to mention it just screams crafty and creative two things that I am by nature NOT. Here are this weeks favorite things.

 From Here

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Also I am going for this hair style… In a different color maybe.   Maybe if I take prenatals for the rest of the year my hair might make it here by lets say next x-mass

I am stealing this idea if I can ever get a spare moment to make them. They are so cute they make me want to scream.

this cute blog 

I also ordered my first Birch box. Have you seen these? I am SUPER duper excited about my BOX. (sorry couldn't resit)

All in all today was a good day and a great start to my new and improved attitude. Life is simple if you let it be so, I am just going to let it be.

1/18/2012

Wordie Wednesday

Ever have one of those never ending days? I am in the middle of one right now. Well, I think I am in the middle of week two of never ending days. Ever day has been a new task and new adventure and mostly a new Scot. This morning he woke up and didn’t know where he was. Didn’t understand that how he got to Boise. He was VERY confused about the whole thing. I am amazed at how much he can remember one moment and then the next to remember nothing. It is really hard to tell if he is making improvements at all.

Our brains are a very very complex organ. Hope Scots brain is amazing and can put together all of these new path ways and repair some of the old ones. He is having a very hard time understand how impaired he truly is. I have heard people talking with him and you couldn’t tell anything was wrong at all. Then a morning like today happens and you realize just how fragile life is.

I can’t say that I am not nervous. Sean and I have both been experiencing higher than normal anxiety. Sean’s work load heavy right now to. They are getting ready to release a new project. So you know how everything lands on us at once or maybe we just function better under high levels of stress.

On another note; I found one of Sean’s sweaters in the closet. I stole it and I love it. I don’t think he has ever worn it due to finding the tag still on it.  He even said it looks nice on me. Hee Hee. Sometimes men’s wear is truly women’s wear.  BIG black and grey sweater makes me smile and is great for house work.

It snowed and snowed and snowed today. OMG it drop 6 inches in less than five hours. It was crazy. I didn’t want to leave the house due to the amount of snow on my car. I am regretting not taking a picture now. Corbynn who stayed home sick was stoked to go out bundled all up to make a snowman. Our snowman didn’t last long though because the rain came and broke him down. Corbynn just thought it was funny that I had made a bad snowman: aka one that couldn’t hold up to a little rain.

Lots of randomness going on… Oh and I pulled a whole wall of wallpaper off with my mother this morning to find a horrid green. The green was worse than wallpaper. So on to the primer!

01/14/2012

Saturday!

Don’t you just love those days when shit almost every to-do item on your list gets done? These days are few and far between in our home but, today we were rock stars. We got up and got moving and didn’t stop until all we could do was done!

             Today we:

1.     Got a quote on getting the tile in the bathroom done! (hurray we can afford it)

2.    Went and found amazing slate tile at a great price!

3.    Picked up our hard wood.

4.   Went to the mall to look at I-phones for Scot. 

5.    Called AT&T to get set up as an authorized user on Scot account.

6.   Took Scot Sushi!

7.   Found out how to complain about Scots phone going missing from the Rehab floor.

8.    Ate breakfast, Small lunch, and dinner. Not to mention drank my lemon water and kept it meat free today.

I am feeling accomplished today even if I am feeling slightly under the weather.  When I look to the right my nose runs down my face it is a little embarrassing but only when another person notices that drops of water falling from my nostril.  Just a bit awkward .

Scots Iphone went missing yesterday from the rehab unit. They moved him rooms while he was in Speech therapy and when he came back his phone was gone. I love how the next day the phone is used and now we know that Elks rehab has a thief. Not exactly great P.R. for a hospital to have their patients stuff go missing. Luckily his I-pad was still there or else I would have gone off the wall. I am pretty disappointed with the staffs lack of response.

Our shower is being Tiled on Monday, Floors go in on Tuesday (hopefully we will have this done in time for Scot coming home on Friday)

Our family pictures are done! I can’t wait to show them to you. The wonderful Lamartina Photography did a GREAT job. Check her out here! The awesome Lamartina She is Talented and if by chance you are in Edmonton Canada give her a holler.

1/11/2012

Remodel!

          Today Scot’s doctors got together and set a possible  date for him coming here to do out-patient rehab. We were surprised to hear that they thought Scot would be able to come home on the 20^th HURRAY. Even though this means that he will not be as close to independent as Sean and I had hoped. It will make healing a lot easier. Being in the hospital is a hard place to “really” heal. You don’t know anyone and you don’t sleep well and everything is new. Not that being here things won’t be new but, they will become comfortable and secure. He will have his things, clothes, computer and t.v. I think the difference will make a huge change in how Scot is feeling.

          To be prepared for this will take a lot of doing on our side. We will need to get his room/bathroom finished in the next ten days. It will be hard to do but, not impossible to accomplish in 10 days. My brother is coming over to do more work tomorrow and then again on Sunday. Hopefully Monday floors will go in and then on Tuesday we can start bringing in furniture and such.  My list of items to aquire is growing by the minute. He will need a bed, arm chair and night stand. I love that part getting to that point is the challenge.

          As for Sean and I the stress level is high right now. I am getting up and going to spend time with Scot in the morning and Sean is getting off work and coming home for dinner then going to visit Scot. Our lives are a little out of control right now so I think our emotions might be running on overdrive. The uncertainty of where all of this is going to take us is weighing heavy on our minds.

Lots of love and light! Sending it out into the world.

1/10/2012

Scot is here!

           Sean and I moved Scot here over the weekend into a local Rehab! It has been exhausting emotionally and physically. You are never truly ready for the emotions that coming with seeing a friend in duress.

          We arrived in SLC, Ut on Saturday and spent most of Saturday afternoon with Scot just talking. He is talking well and socializing on an incredible level considering a month ago he was near death is ICU after a 9 hour surgery. None of thought he was going to come out of it but Scot is a resislent man. His will to live surprised us all that week.

          He is walking well as long as a person is standing beside him to steady him if he gets wobbly. He has trouble getting up and going down stairs. He also tires easily but, all in all we are very very happy with his progress.

          As for his thoughts they are a little off at times. He can remember a lot of his past and recall right now fairly well however there are some serious holes in there still. Today he thought it was 2007 and couldn’t tell us for sure where he was. On the other side of this there are complete moments of clarity.  Those moments I treasure; I feel them so deeply that I think my heart might be beating loud enough for the nurses to hear it.

          We don’t know what the future holds for Scot but, we don’t know what it holds for me. Having Scot here gives me hope for me and him. Little by lttle the world is showing us that if you truly believe your body can do AMAZING things.

Pictures from the move to come! Missed you all this weekend loves

Kayla

01/04/2012

2012

affinity (ah-FIN-i-tee) — 1. a natural attraction, liking, or feeling of kinship. 2. relationship by marriage. 3. an inherent similarity between persons or things. 4. a relationship or resemblance in structure between species that suggests a common origin. 5. the attraction between an antigen and an antibody. 6. an attraction or force between particles that causes them to combine.

My word for the year is affinity. I have never had a word before but, I woke up this morning with two. This year brings a lot of changes to my life. I will for the first time ever give my heart away not thinking about taking it back. I have been married before but, I did not give him my heart and knew the day I walked down the isle that someday I would be signing divorce papers. It is not the same this time. I will grow old with Sean. I will rock on the porch with our coffees every morning until the day I do not awake to have my coffee. 

This year is about commitment to each other, our children, and our friends. This year we will commit our selves forever. We will hold our family closer than we have ever been. Our world won’t change much but, the intention behind our lives has changed more than I can express. Our intentions are forever family.

Our commitment to our friends is HUGE. Scot is moving here next week for his recovery. He is going to join our family for however long it takes to get him back on his feet. Scot is going to be a part of our everyday lives from here until who knows when. Every time I turn around I our family gets a little bit bigger. I had no idea how my heart would stretch to make room for the people that become part of our lives.

To be honest I am just as scared as I am ready. I am afraid of what this will do to my relationship but, I am commited to making it work. We will make it through the challenges that lie ahead. We will be strong and be together through all of this. We will become stronger together through this experience.

Thank you all for being part of my journey. Happy New Year.