Signs of summer are every where. It is slowly pushing my slight depression out the door. Those hard realities seem to sink in from time to time and ruin my ultimately positive world. I believe I have said it before I am here to enjoy what ever is left. I am here to be here to love, laugh, cry, and give back. I am here to be a positive force for those around me. The last few weeks I am not sure I have had the strength to do just that. I have been in my yearly slump feeling sorry for myself. Then I woke up this morning with a list of tasks to do that was more than a mile long; Deadlines that needed met, real estate classes that need attendance.
Why, I am down? I am the luckies girl alive ! I have out lived my life by over a year and I am still going strong. No more fainting spells, leg problems, and constant migraines. I was am so lucky for all the advancing in medicine or I wouldn't have this to do list. I wouldn't be giving my child pink eye meds. I wouldn't have these chances to be upset at our local school district.
Once again I am humbled by my selfishness. Today is a great day because, yes I am here.
What you go through is natural.I get just the same.
ReplyDeleteYou are brave. Your attitude is good and together with your sense of courage and your joy of life itself...... I'm sure all that will put you in good stead to carry on and surprise all the medical staff. There are new discoveries and treatments being discovered all the time.
Maggie X
Nuts in May
You are NOT selfish.
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