02/23/2012

I know this is suppose to be a time of joy, honeymooning, and lots of movement under the sheets

BUT

I think I may need a minute to vent and just get real about life.

If you have been following your know my schedule is completely out of wack.

With five other people to account for it has become a bit

fucking crazy over here. 

(I don't think my over acting hormones are helping much)

I feel completly over whelmed with schedule on top of schedule on top

of our regular house chores. I don't feel as if 

ANYTHING 

is getting done around here. The laundry seems to be mounting around every corner.

Lets not even talk about the dust bunnies.. They are breeding in about all the rooms. 

There just does not seem to be the time in a day to get 

everything done. 

Just when I think there is going to be an hour just one hour of time 

just for me... It seems to fall apart right before my eyes. 

Some appointment was moved, canceled or rescheduled with even my knowledge. 

Or another kid is sick. 

All I know is that there were suppose to be 5 hours today to catch up on my house; 

You guess it not even five minutes. 

I feel like pulling out all my hair and screaming at the top of my lungs. 

 JUST GIVE ME FIVE MINUTES.. Just five. 

But yelling isn't going to make anything better. I just have to take more deep breathes and try and life

with in the moment. I know that is a tough one on its own. 

Do you ever feel like there is NOT a person that you know that doesn't want from you? 

I can't seem to shake the feeling that everyone NEEDS something right now. 

I don't know how much I have to give left. 

Maybe it is time for some wine and a bath....Opps forget it is already past bedtime. 

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.